I am back!

Wow! What a year it has been. I guess I should have read through my blogs before posting, but I didn't. Anyway, I think I last wrote about a guy that seemed so wonderful. He continues to be more than wonderful. In May, he proposed to me on the Eiffel Tower. We are getting married a year from now on September 4, 2010 . I'll write more on all this later and will have to change the title of my blog, too, huh?

As far as running, I have been quite the slacker. Priorities change when you first start a relationship. At any rate, last month I created a new top 20 project. I think I mentioned that project from last year in a past blog. Anyway, one of my goals is a marathon. I am planning on PF Changs in AZ in January. Another goal on the list is monthly blogging. I'll post more on the whole list later.

Back to the running...over the last month, I keep getting back in the gym and then get sidetracked. Because the event is starting to approach quickly, I am now committing. I need to be running 15 miles a week before I start the official training. This week, I am at 6 so far. With that said, I think I need to get off of here to run!!

Love and Pain

Okay, so I have found this guy, Andrew, and all is going so well. From him opening the car door to opening his heart to me, I could not ask for more. Additionally, I am getting so damn spoiled. I received the most beautiful bouquet of lilies hand delivered. I have gotten roses. I have been to Vegas. While there, we watched two Cirque shows and took a helicopter ride to the Grand Canyon. My birthday was two days ago. In addition to my trip to the spa, he gave me a necklace from Tiffanys. It goes on...

However, this blog is supposed to be about running. Do you run? I don't! lol Finding the time to run when you are newly in love is tough. But, I am trying hard to get back on track. Hmmmm, can you not understand my distraction???

I have a small problem though...my ankles. They swell. Yep, I need to go to the doctor and I am procrastinating!! Anyway, I went to the gym yesterday. I did 5 miles but part was on the eliptical. Tonight, I ran 6 in 62.5 minutes. That is good time for me. I am going to try hard to get back on track!!

How Long Does It Take to Fall in Love?

So, I have went out with hotel guy/Andrew a few more times. On Thursday night, he actually took the time to rig a raffle so that I could win a prize. I opened up the giftbag having no idea what was going on. There was a SIMS expansion pack Bon Vonage game and an envelope. I was told to pick one. Of course I picked the envelope! It was a 14 night (or maybe day) trip to Europe. Of course, it was not the actually trip arrangements, but it was him saying that he wants to take me to Europe. I had planned to have a talk with him about the whole thing moving too fast prior to this surprise. The conversation was not me saying that I want to slow it down. It was more about me handling myself differently so that I get different results. I ended up still having the conversation. I went out again with him on Friday. I am enjoying his company so much that I do not know what to do. The funniest part about it is now I am getting a lot of interest on eharmony. lol I have not even logged in, but I get the notifications via e-mail. Perhaps the whole I want to take you to Europe thing should be scaring me away, but I am truly enjoying all of the attention. When I set and think about it, all I can think is that I really deserve this. I deserve to have someone open the car door. I deserve to have someone who is thinking of me and lets me know it. I deserve to have someone who wants to spoil me. As I have really been thinking about what I want a lot lately, I think he is exactly it. I don't want to be scared. I want to act like I am 14 years old and see what happens.

Treadmill Jam

So, this morning I was having a hard time motivating myself to run. I am still not 100% committed to the marathon, yet I am worried that it might fill before I register. Anyway, I was contemplating whether to run outside in the gorgeous weather or go to the gym. It was a little windy. My contacts and the wind are not always friends. I go into the gym. Yes, I drop my jacket into the treadmill. It is completely jammed. I have to walk up to the front desk and request they place a sign on the treadmill. Mind you this morning I put on the jacket. It felt so cozy. Now, it remains at the gym. If you are reading, please say a little prayer for my jacket. I would like it in one piece and in the lost and found. I would love to have it back!

I ran. I think I ran 5 miles. I was not sure exactly where I was at the jam. I might have ran 6. Anyway, I did at least what I was supposed to do today!

Dating--So, I am getting a little tired of the lack of response from eHarmony. I think I am attractive. I know I am educated. I have a good job and a nice lifestyle. What is the problem here?? I have been contemplating joining a matchmaking service. The ones I have researched actually charge $10K!! Not a bad investment if you find someone, but what if you don't? I guess I lost $100K on my house and more than $10K in my investments so who cares!!

I did have a first date last night. It is a guy that I have known for a few years through work. He manages a hotel. He had asked me out for Thursday, and I was not able to go out that night. He ended up going with me to a birthday party. He was a wonderful date, and everyone seemed to like him, too. He suggested we see a movie today. It should be fun. SO, I guess I should not be complaining about e-Harmony!!

Almost Ready to Register

I am scared to commit to the marathon. I have started training though. There has been nothing hard core yet, but I think I am really going to do it.

Being in the Moment

Being in the moment is something that I have always struggled with. While I am getting better at it, I wonder how you can be in the moment yet plan for the future. Today, I was good at being in the moment in traffic. Instead of stressing out about the day or worrying about my party tomorrow, I simply listened to the music and enjoyed it.

This blog is really less about being in the moment and more about deciding whether or not to end a relationship. I have had this on and off again relationship for 5 years. Yep, 5 whole years. It seems to be going nowhere. When you are in the moment, who cares! At the same time, I want different things for the future. I want to share my bills for one!! I want to be in a loving relationship. As much as I hate to say it, I am not sure why I keep going through this. I have tried and tried to be in a loving relationship with this man. As many times as we have tried, it does not work. There is some saying about that being insanity.

I think I might be procrastinating cleaning for the party so I am going to do that!

It Sounded Like A Good Idea

I am having a small get together tomorrow night. When did inviting friends over become more than buying a keg? Yes, I need to clean. I need to go get some food and drinks. Yes, I have beer and wine already! But, I need coffee, just in case. It would be so much easier to go pick up a keg. This party sounded like a good idea four weeks ago!

It also sounded like a good idea once upon a time ago to have responsibilities at work. Last night I had a dream that I woke up late. I missed three meetings. Yes, I was in charge of them all. I woke up thinking I should just take the day off, but it never seems like a good day to do it. Plus, one day never really helps, does it?

I have been trying to focus on enjoying having a job. Many people have lost their jobs and their homes. Today, I have the luxury to go to work and return to my very own home that I will enjoy cleaning! =)